All's fair in love and war

There's my Happy Baby!!!

Thanks to all of you for your comments on my post yesterday. It really meant a lot to me. The blogging world is such a beautiful support system. It's something nobody will ever understand unless you are in it. It's one of the reasons it was so important to me to publish that post. Most of my blog is very cheery and uplifting. But, in order to truly share myself and be genuine, the darkest moments are important to share as well. Especially for moms like myself that live the dark secret of being physically attacked by our Special Needs kids. It was the roughest day we've had so far. I am used to the middle of the night meltdowns and even sleep in a defense position. It's actually kind of funny because my tween, Iz, and I both got it down. Pillow over right side of head with arm securing it. The other arm swung around covering our nose. If you don't cover your nose and he wakes up before you, he jams his finger in it. That hurts!!! One time I almost called 911 because I felt faint and couldn't get the bleeding to stop. Someday I will get Iz to take a pic of me sleeping so you can see my defense style sleeping position. I could take one of him... he has an extra pillow to cover his groin! Sometimes after the millionth time trying to wake Iz up for school I will just yell "Watch your Balls here he comes!!"... he jumps out of bed immediately, it's hysterical!! We tend to laugh at most things and its very therapeutic. 

I think the baby's schedule being thrown off was just too much for him. Routine's are so important to all of our children. I got some great emails from special needs and non-special needs moms telling me their stories. I felt so much better!!  Thank goodness for Summer School next week! 

Today we are going out to the park right after breakfast. I couldn't fathom taking him out yesterday after such a Huge Meltdown. Autistic or not... there was no way I could reward that behavior. We stayed in all day, he finally napped while I did the crazy rocking back and forth to calm myself down. After the park I am taking him to my friends moms house while I exercise. Hopefully I don't lose anymore hair or I will have to cut it all off. I was telling another blogger friend of mine, he's a smart kid... you see he didn't rip his own hair out! In order to save my hair and sanity, I think this summer we will begin non-school days at the park. He drives a hard bargain, but "all's fair in love and war".